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Tue, 16 Apr 2013 22:19:05 -0700

yeahman.

So High On Lyfe. 10th Annual Collaboration Urban Dance...

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 13:02:33 -0700

So High On Lyfe.

10th Annual Collaboration Urban Dance Competition. We didn’t place, but surely it was our best moment together as Haluan and my best moment of the year. It felt like a dream. The best dream ever. Love Haluan!! 💕

With @kyledemoncock

not just a piece of ass

Sun, 24 Mar 2013 23:06:00 -0700

i know i have a nice ass, but i dont want to be seen as a piece of ass. i need respect and if you cant give it to me then you arent worth my time.

this is the reason i dont want to hang out with you anymore cause whenever we hang out all you want is me to be exactly what i dont want to be. maybe the other girls that you have gone for before were like that but thats not me. maybe thats why you want me so bad is because im not like those girls. im beautiful, smart, talented, sweet, and im not a disgusting whore. im not trying to be cocky. and i know it sounds that way. but im just saying that i deserve better. and yeah, maybe better is right around the corner. and all your friends seem like better guys then you. your friends give me more respect than you do.

theres a reason why i blow you off all the time and i havent hung out with you in a long time and when i have, ive made sure there were other people there. and i dont plan on ever being alone with you ever again. i know this is not what you wanted to hear, but youre not worth my time.

idk how to tell you how i feel.

Mon, 18 Mar 2013 00:23:00 -0700

if YOU are reading this, YOU should stop now.

how to tell you what is really on my mind….thats the question.
if you read this you are going to go crazy and maybe be angry and maybe have a little happiness inside but you are probably going to confront me about it and if you do im just gonna act like i dont know what you are talking about.
the thing is..i know you want other people. but what is wrong with me? i know i had my problems but im way better now. i know what i want and what i dont want. i still have to work on stuff but im getting there. i feel comfortable with you and its crazy cause ive never felt this way with anyone. i can be myself and i can act weird and youll be fine with it because you know thats me and you accept me for me. everyone always finds something to judge me on but you dont. and im not sure if i can ever be this comfortable with another person. i try but its not the same.

i know there are other reasons why we cant be together but sometimes it just hurts because i love you so much as my best friend but sometimes i want more and i know sometimes you do too. but you just want me as a friend. i need to know why. its killing me. i miss being your girl and i miss you being my boy. and i know this is selfish but i dont want anyone else to have you because i know how amazing you are. you are smart and funny. and you can sing and i guess dance. and you are sweet and you care. and you want to get to know who i really am and you want to help me and you understand me and you give me advice. and you love me for me. i dont want any other girl to hold your hand or get your kisses. ill miss that. i mean i guess i already do. and trust me i try so hard to not want you, but at the end of the day you are the last one i think of before i go to sleep.

i know you are moving on and i think its great if thats what makes you happy because thats all i really want is for you to be happy.

now i just look like an idiot in the library crying to myself and posting this on tumblr..i mean who does that?

i know im going to regret posting this later. but i needed to let out my feelings. i hurt too much to hold them in.

hopefully the time will come soon.

Wed, 13 Feb 2013 03:40:42 -0800

hopefully the time will come soon.

can't believe it

Wed, 13 Feb 2013 03:39:54 -0800

This isnt what I wanted. I wanted to be friends but you just crushed everything. My life is so empty without you. I told a few people. But I dont know.

I had so much hope in us. Guess its not going to happen.

I need help. And I looked it up tonight.

Thanks for everything you did to help me. I’ll miss you..I already am.

2/27/12 10ish to 2/12/13 11:18

To Be or Not To Be

Tue, 12 Feb 2013 22:08:09 -0800

My friends all tell me that you arent right for me, even as a friend. They tell me that our friendship isnt even a real friendship in the first place. I know that you have helped me out so much, but is it time to say goodbye? Even if it hurts more to leave than to stay.

I dont know what to do. I dont know what is right. All I want right now is for you to tell me. But you wont talk to me. Is this a sign? Or is it just because you are busy? Or is that still a sign?

I was thinking back to a time when we were hanging out and my tummy hurt so while I was away, you went to the store and bought a roll of Tums. Later that day, in church, I told you that it was hurting really badly and you pulled out the roll and gave me one. You took one yourself too so I wouldnt feel out of place and also just because you wanted to. You gave me more after that. That was one of my favorite memories. Not because you spent money on me, but because you actually thought about me.

This is how I think of you all the time, I want to take care of you. But is that how you think of me.

To the random people out there. What would you do—stay friends or leave?

Photo

Tue, 12 Feb 2013 22:00:38 -0800

1,2,3,Ready,Set,Go.

Thu, 31 Jan 2013 23:31:50 -0800

1,2,3,Ready,Set,Go.

The Perfect Valentine's Day

Mon, 28 Jan 2013 01:52:00 -0800

My whole life, I’ve been waiting for the perfect Valentine’s Day.

I would wake up to a phone call from the person that I love. I would find roses everywhere from the person I love. I would get chocolates or those cheesy Valentine’s candy cards. We’d share hugs and kisses. I want to be sung to in public because you don’t care what anyone else thinks. Maybe even a poem of how special I am and how important I am. A nice dinner or just a picnic. A day full of happiness, laughter, and love. I thought maybe I would finally get this because I met someone that means the world to me, but it turns out, this year will be a disappointment like all the rest.

I mean I know it’s the thought that counts, but every Valentine’s Day I’ve had so far has been a let down because there was no thought put into it. I want to feel special. I want to feel wanted.

I guess I’ll just wait 50 years..and even then, I might not get the thought that I want. I’m not saying this is exactly what I want, because I do love surprises, but it’d be nice to feel really special for once. It would be nice to feel like I am the only person who matters to that one person for a day..

I want to feel how much I mean to you. I should feel it everyday, but if I only get to feel it once a year …

**I wrote this cause I was feeling sad**

**Sorry for bringing you down, if you’re reading this.**

Give Support!!!

Thu, 24 Jan 2013 03:35:49 -0800

Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive? Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated? Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the ones who need it the most? Did you know the 3 hardest things to say are I love you, I’m sorry, and help me. Sometimes just because a person looks happy, you have to look past their smile and see how much pain they may be in. To all my friends who are going through some issues right now - Let’s start an intention avalanche. We all need positive intentions right now. If I don’t see your name, I’ll understand. May I ask my friends wherever you might be, to kindly copy and paste this status for one hour to give a moment of support to all those who have family problems, health struggles, job issues, worries of any kind and just need to know that someone cares. Do it for all of us, for nobody is immune. I hope to see this on the walls of all my friends just for moral support.

"i dont want to be your friend. i thought i did…but it hurts too much…to be with you but..."

Wed, 23 Jan 2013 02:25:20 -0800

“i dont want to be your friend. i thought i did…but it hurts too much…to be with you but not be with you”

- ~Switched at Birth, S2E3, Emmett

hplyrikz: The best quotes on Tumblr. I’m that girl.

Tue, 22 Jan 2013 23:18:26 -0800

hplyrikz:

The best quotes on Tumblr.

I’m that girl.

Some Resolutions

Tue, 01 Jan 2013 00:31:02 -0800

Live in the moment and out.

Think before you act.

Love everything.

Be safe.

Stay Strong.

Have fun.

Good Grades.

Do best.

Keep improving.

Make your mark.

Change someone’s life.

Have someone change mine.

Be more outgoing.

Make mistakes.

Learn from them.

Don’t get fat.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! 2013 BABY, Live It Up!

Mon, 31 Dec 2012 22:18:50 -0800

As I was on my way to the city today, New Year’s Eve, I thought about all the good and bad things that happened this year. By this year, I mean 2012. I’ve made so many great friends, although I did lose some older friends along the way, but I’m fine because the friends that I am making now are so much better. Anyways, I wanted to say thank you to all the people that I haven’t thanked in a longgg time..or ever. I know they all know that I am super thankful for them, but I just haven’t told them yet.

Thanks for my parents for raising me to become such a strong person, thanks for supporting me through everything, and thanks for putting up with me during the best and worse times in my life.

Thanks to my brother for always standing up for me. Although we used to fight a lot and we still do, I wouldn’t be me without you. You protect me like I am some sort of treasure, but I guess that is just cause I’m your little sister and you don’t want anything to happen to me.

Thanks to the rest of my large family for all their love. Also thanks to my family that has passed away, I know you visit me all the time. I see those moths. :)

Thanks to my roomies for being amazing.

Thanks to my girl best friend, we’ve been friends for at least 17 years and we are still going strong. I love you and I miss you soo much since you moved across the country almost 9 years ago.

Thanks to my new friends from school! You guys make me feel at home when I am not home. Thanks for being trustworthy and honest and thanks for making me feel comfortable with you. I know I’m annoying, but thanks for putting up with it.

And last but definitely not least, thanks to my other best friend. You light up my world. I didn’t know myself till I met you. I was lost and you helped guide me. You saved my life and you are a wonderful best friend. Although we fight a lot, you are like my brother. I love you and I know you love me. We can talk about anything and I never want that to change. Even though there are certain things that we hate about each other, we can look past those because we know that there are more things that we love about each other. Thanks for always being there and doing what you have to do to protect me. But I can take care of myself. I just want you to know that we all make mistakes sometimes, so just let me make a few mistakes now and then. I’m not perfect and neither are you. I miss you so much, but I’ll see you at school.

THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES. They will live on in my heart forever.

2012 was great, let’s live it up in 2013.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!

slave

Tue, 18 Dec 2012 01:04:45 -0800

…but it sucks that the only person that i really want to talk to, is the person that i really dont and shouldnt want to talk to.. :/ im sorry for making you angry.

going back

Sun, 02 Dec 2012 23:33:48 -0800

i find myself in a pickle.

i always want people to help me out, and then i want to help them out in return. but i freeze. i dont know what to say. i dont know how to help others from a close distance. from far away, i can say certain things but face to face is the hardest. i need time to think. i have to sort out my thoughts, otherwise im just jumbled up. but now no one is going to come to me for help and then now who do i go to?

… i cant keep going back to you …

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Sun, 25 Nov 2012 10:19:28 -0800

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